Part 2 of my Social Experiment: Year 1- Returning to Discord and my speech on Furries/Bronies that motivated hundreds of people?

2019: It can't get any worse than this right? 

I was extremely afraid to go back to any social media site. All I could think about is the amount of times I have failed, to properly communicate with strangers. The nightmares of being banned and kicked out of chats/group discussions, over my opinions on the entire entertainment industry. Oh the thought of coming back just made me want to throw up. But what motivated me to give it one more chance? The power of research and extra knowledge. For what is a being without an education/personal experience?

When I came back from my spiritual journey, I returned to the FUAW chat, apologized for notifying everyone all the time about updates and started a new. One thing that I noticed, is that once I stopped doing that, everyone was lost and had no idea where to look for certain links to videos and etc. I would laugh but I don't know what else to laugh about. Isn't funny how when you try to help somebody or educate them, most people resent it? Pretty fascinating and odd huh?

Boy did I make the biggest mistake of my life. There was a show called the Hazbin Hotel and I knew trouble was going to occur at any moment. But why not? This is probably gonna be my longest journal entry ever. So buckle up. We are taking a temporary ride to hell.

It all started after I watched the pilot episode that confused the hell out of me. There were tons of reviews/criticisms towards this one particular show. So I figured, "Hey! Let me see if there are any discord servers on the Hazbin Hotel?" I found tons of them. One in particular, was the second largest Hazbin Hotel Discord server group I have ever seen. So I swallowed my pride and decided to join in. I knew this was not gonna end well for me.

In the cookie cutter stage, everything was fine. I met a bunch of strangers and talked to them. I knew that being myself would cause me to be bored and just end up leaving anyway. So I figured, "Time to put my roleplaying skills to the test one more time." I roleplayed as a character named Edley, who is a security guard for the Hazbin Hotel, Helluva Boss and Ms. Katie's new station. The character was portrayed as an awkward but caring individual, who dated five women at the same time, without them even knowing. Yup. I had no idea what I was thinking at the time.

One of my biggest issues that I have with social media in general, is the communication aspect. If I talk too formally, people find me off and outputting. But If I use their lingo and perform in ways that are strange even to me, I get bans and kicked out of servers. During this experiment, I wanted to use three of my OC's in each of these chats. Edley, RoastemToast Rebirthed (a loud mouth who hates bullcrap) and Mov (a MLP OC who is sweet/ has a crush on pony bot.) If you join social media for the experience of having fun?  Think again.

Whether it be a discord chat for anime, brony or even VizziePop, be prepared to be locked in a cage/given limited rights. We deal with an era of social media, where people lie, raid dead servers (did it one time) and is falsely accused by people. Not only that, social media is now taken over by corrupted businesses and children. That is a scary thought. With that being said, let us continue.

Let's be honest. I was bored out of my mind. Discord is extremely boring. If you tag somebody, it is considered harassment to some. Want to joke about something? Instant ban and kick from a server. Or how about this? Post a picture of Bubbles from PPG's twerking fully clothed? (fake person meaning it is not real) Reported to Discord! I am not kidding. Social Media is a cesspool of trash nowadays!

I am getting ahead of myself. Edley was in the Hazbin Hotel servers, where he roleplayed and tried to get to know others. Mov was almost hated by the MLP pony community for just being his weird self. RoastemToast REBIRTH could careless about anything. Sometimes I have to switch to this OC when I am absolutely vivid at something. All in all, I was misunderstood all the time and I knew nobody. I felt so alone.

Everybody that I dealt with in that chat, has broken more norms than I did. I will NOT list any names. I forgive everyone and just want to get this off my chest. I also apologize for any actions that I have done that were deemed "unacceptable." (and petty)  Come to think of it? I have always gotten in trouble over "misconceptions and petty actions." And when I talk to other people about it, they just laugh and say, "That's it?"

So for over a couple of months, I have received hate, been cursed at and even ridiculed for just being my OC's. Sound familiar to anybody? Oh and I remember when I said that I raided a dead server? Never gonna do that again. That was not a smart idea at all. But why did I do it and why did I use my OC's to interact with others? I can truly say that I am taking a break from anything VizziePop related.

As far as my Speech 5 goes? I presented it to the class  and if you want to see how it went? Email me.

Simple. Research and information purposes. To learn more about the incident or if you just want to chat with me. Email me. See you all in next blog post.

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2020: Discord was a mistake? 

Well? 2020 happened. And it was not pretty. I can't tell you how many times I got kicked out of discord server after discord server. Then there was that time when I almost left the FUAW for good due to personal reasons. It is hard for me to remember why somebody like me, keeps going through this endless mental torment of meeting people, getting hurt and etc. I guess it is time to explain five possible reasons why this keeps happening to me. 

Miscommunication is my first guess. As a matter of fact, I have met a lot of people who told me that, "They miscommunicated something via a joke/etc. and got booted for it." Could this be a sign that people are so broken nowadays, that they are beyond repair/help? Or does this mean that most people are in a dangerous mindset, of blacking out certain things in their mind through censorship, instead of taking responsibility for their actions? Either way, it is completely unfair to just ban somebody and not give them a second chance. God did it for us and I am still surprised that he does. 

Entertainment industry. I can't stand the AAA entertainment industry. We never really had any say so for anything. All of our rants, videos and etc. were just a ploy, to make these companies look good in the end. What's even worse is that, I have abandoned fighting games (so close to leaving gaming alone) in general. I can't think of the last time I watched an anime, movie or bought a AAA game at a retail store. It's getting pretty bad and getting banned/attacked for wanting betterment, is pretty annoying and obnoxious! (Looking at you Last of Us II and Pro Wrestling as a whole) 

Age gap confusion. Sometimes it works and most of the time, it causes controversy. Blame all the pedos of the world who continue to make good people's lives harder. I wonder what would happen, if we all just ignored the pleas/suggestions of children? But then again, "Why continue the conversation with them?" Let's just continue an endless cycle of hurt/mental abuse within in the youth right? This is such a useless topic. (A grown man can't like Gacha or they are considered a pedo/creep? Great to see that the world has learned nothing still) 

Anonymous. Don't get me wrong. I do it all the time to keep myself safe. However, being anonymous all the time, can cause you to lose actual good people in your life. It is fun to play the troll and be many personas at times, but nothing is better than being yourself. We are all flawed and need to help one another instead of canceling one another! Cancel culture was a mistake! 

Last but not least, mental health barriers. Everyone is afraid to admit that they have a problem. To them, it shows a sign of weakness. It is kind of like a grown man crying to a group of teenagers because that grown adult lost their job or was lied to by another person. If 2020 has taught me anything, it is that these cartoons that portray adults are sadly right in some cases. People are mean spirited and stupid at times.  Not only that, most of them don't really understand the concepts of true love/team work. Because of this, 2020 continues to teach us harsh lessons each night/day. 

2020 was a mistake. Just like Discord/social media. It is a necessary evil that we must learn from and deal with for a season in our lives. The best thing to do? Stay in contact with those that care and give the rest to God. Otherwise, you will always be miserable/scattered brain. Have a small group of friends and keep a large group of acquaintances. Don't get caught up in something that will destroy you internally.